Addiction/Recovery
streams April 14th, 2008
Addiction and Recovery and The Power of Joy
Every “fix” is an act of resistance.
It’s time to remember. You are a shimmering burst of spiral gestures of joy that has temporarily taken on the form of a human being, all human beings and life, agreeing to endure confusion and lies about your true origin. And why did you do that? It is your instinct, your animal nature to seek out the source. Because it’s the best way to forge an exquisitely unique and robust identity that would be capable of being part and parcel of the elemental force in our 14-billion-year campaign to bring heaven all the way down to earth.
A Guide to Health, Joy, Love and Abundance.
When does the simple desire for relief, or to feel relaxed become overshadowed by the destructive, overpowering impulses of addiction? Do you want the joy without the “monkey on your back”? Has the maintenance of whatever your addiction of choice is become difficult to manage? Are you feigning a normal life in-between fixes? Is your addiction your highest priority? Is your addiction what you most nurture? Do you feel misunderstood and or trapped by your addiction? Are you living a parallel life? Are you lying , hiding, denying, or losing friends, jobs and things that you once thought were important to you? Have you been “forgetting” or erasing the lines you once believed you would never cross? Are you secretive and isolating because you know your version of the activity is way over the top and you don’t want others to know? Do you tell yourself you need your drug or behavior of choice, and that no one else would understand? Do you often find yourself justifying and defending your rights to it? Is it a secret? Would you do it if a child or your mother was in the room? Do others know how much you consume? In between “fixes”, how often are you thinking about it? How many activities are seconded to your addiction or are arranged around obtaining it? How much time a day is spent on it? Are you blaming others for stuff, getting angry or moody, lying around it, manipulating others or diverting them away from your secret? Are you obtuse and unaccountable in general? Are you a victim? Do you defend your right to engage, even though others have expressed concern? How much do you rationalize it? Are you looking forward to your next fix? How many direct and implied lies do you manufacture around it? Do you blame others for not having enough money? Have you had it? Do you want to stop but can’t find a way out? Do you want the power of choice to return to your life? If you want to get sober, and the traditional methods just aren’t working, what I found out may work for you. I have been sober for a bit more than 10 years and because of what I found out, I simply would not be able to entertain a full blown addiction. It’s not hard, requires no chasing of anything, and no allegiances to anything except to your self.
I am a creative intellectual who just couldn’t figure out why I would prefer to be sober all day long. I preferred to honor the fear within me and I believed that was my true self. I thought I needed to protect myself from something and alcohol served that purpose nicely. For me, there was nothing compelling enough nor convincing that would attract me to sobriety on a regular basis. High on alcohol, I felt more in touch with a part of the core of me that no one else knew. That part of me was hurting and needed attention was my core. That part of me was desperately alone, and emotionally sick and afraid. I felt like I was on the outside of life. I had never been validated in my life and didn’t know then what I have since discovered to be true. At first I tried the typical 12-step programs. For me, there was something wrong in that realm for me. For one thing, the directions and recommendations within that school of thought seemed very closed and addictive themselves. I’ve heard the phrase “you have to chase the meetings the way you chased your drug of choice” and 90 meetings in 90 days. Nothing like using addictive thinking to “cure” addiction. That alone is too much like replacing one set of behaviors for another because the power behind the pursuit is still addiction. The idea that the solution is somewhere outside of you is what the disease of addiction has you believing in the first place.
My methods and understanding are working for myself and for others whom I have shown them to and I have 10 plus years of experience and living proof. Also, I am so inspired by my ability to help others with addictions, and I am currently pursuing a Master’s in Mental Health Counseling, in order to appeal to a broader base.
No matter what you are addicted to, you are believing in fear. You also own the despair, the lies, the hiding, the pain, the absurdity, the embarressment, the low self-esteem and all the lies and the crap that fear and all addictions have to offer. They have varying stages and many variables but all are progressive. In my opinion, addiction is a disease of Ego. Ego’s primary function is to work to ensure the survival of the body. When we are in fear, we have turned away from our truth, and given the Ego a misrepresented sense of joy.
Mind, the force that tells the peptide to react, is represented in the physical body, but a carbon molecule is just a thing, nothing without mind’s intelligence (energy).Addiction results when the Ego identifies survival in this world with “escape” from the mind (ultimate intelligence) within. It will hinge its survival on having the substance or doing the behavior that best does the job. When the ego believes it needs something it will fight for it with a powerful force, and it will not stop until it is satisfied. It believes that survival of the entire system is dependent on it. That is the force you see in this video clip, and it is the same force in all addicts. All addiction shares the same force. The secret is that the force or power of addiction is an illusion, and I can deliver on proving that to you. It’s a perspective belief that has a lens only for itself.
But understand no matter where you are in your addiction or obsession, whether it be of a behavioral nature or chemical it is all the same. Whether your drugs and behaviors of choice are from licensed or street drug administrators, the refrigerator, a magazine or movie, shopping, sex, betting, obsessing in any way at all, if you are living and defending a parallel life, the addict in you is the same as the addicts in this video clip. If you think you are not “that bad” you are dangerously mistaken. When addiction finds purchase in your emotional illness, it becomes your best friend and ticket out. Did you know that you are unconsciously agreeing to a contract that wants to rob you of your true reason for being? I want to return you to your true ancestral inheritance, to truth, compassion, love, wholeness, choice, health and joy. I promise can show you how to regain the helm of your life’s purpose, without fear.
If you want to end being controlled by your “drug of choice”, whether it is legal or illegal, chemical or behavioral or if you are just curious about “quitting”, and if you think you might find answers here from G Gioia, but can’t wait around for me to develop my on line offices in this new blog, feel free to email me at ggioia0@gmail.com. I will personally,thoughtfully, compassionately and without judgment, answer each and every email. It is both my goal in life and my purpose to make a stand against addiction. I said “no” to it and I know I can help you to get there too.
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And so, when I look back on it all, it now makes sense.
A powerful intuitive and loving presence has always moved through me. I have a journal from childhood, which I began in my fifth year. In it, I wrote my first line “I have big thing inside me” and I meant that I could feel the hugeness of my spirit and the Love of the Universe and further, its intention wanted something of me. My intuitive strengths come from this source. More than once, in my sobriety, knowledge and soulful wisdom have been known to stream down into me, providing me with insight that is unaccountable. (That’s just one of the gifts in my life. More about those later, although it’s true; Sobriety brings the most profound of gifts.) The joy and affirmations I receive from pursuing my own spirituality give me fulfillment in the depths of my soul. It results from letting my soul speak through me. It beckons me to stay true to the course and it rewards me with synchronisity and Love.
The act of being in and telling the truth is powerful. It creates the feeling of unity and of being with life. Falsity, or telling and believing in lies, will keep you from your natural state which is joy. Understand that just because you believe something is true does not mean tat it is.The feeling in addiction is that of separation. In quantum physics the energy of fear, according to Fred Alan Wolf, is seen in particles which isolate themselves from the rest. People also isolate and separate usually as a symptom of an underlying fear. We are the mirror images of all our scientific discoveries, as we discover ourselves.
Most addictive behavior happens outside of mainstream society, and family. Because Addicts are experts at presenting themselves as normal as possible because they inherently know that in order for the addiction to continue, it must be kept secret. What they do not understand is that the patterns of the thoughts and beliefs that enable the addiction, also give the addiction away.
“The mind & body are connected & it’s so important NOT to forget that. What one eats, as well as what one doesn’t eat, including when one eats it can change the body chemistry dramatically & therefore has a large bearing on physical, emotional, behavioral & creative outcomes.
Addictions & poor health practices permeate our society, robbing individuals & their families of lives they were intended to live. It is possible to permanently change any aspect of one’s lifestyle behavior & ingrained habits. Everything starts with an organized plan of action based on proper physiological & emotional assessment & then etching the orderly action steps into the subconscious mind, where they are marinated in ongoing motivation.”–Elizabeth A. Borhorquez
Accepting Yourself: A Dynamic Choice-Maker
Accepting Yourself: A Dynamic Choice-Maker
From the Daily Om–>http://www.dailyom.com
There is no such thing as a good person or a bad person. There are choices and actions that lead us in different directions, and it is through those choices and actions that we create our realities. Sometimes we choose or do something that takes us in the opposite direction of the reality we want to create for ourselves. When we do this, we feel bad—uneasy, unhappy, unsure. We might go so far as to label ourselves “bad” when a situation like this arises. Instead of labeling ourselves, though, we could simply acknowledge that we made a choice that lead us down a particular path, and then let it go, forgiving ourselves and preparing for our next opportunity to choose, and act, in ways that support our best intentions.
Many of us experienced childhoods in which the words good and bad were used as weapons to control us—you were good if you did what you were told and bad if you didn’t. This kind of discipline undermines a person’s ability to find their own moral center and to trust and be guided by their own inner self. If you were raised this way, you may find yourself feeling shockwaves of badness when you do something you were taught was wrong, even if now you don’t agree that it’s bad. Conversely, you may feel good when you do what you learned was right. Notice how this puts you in something of a straitjacket. An important part of our spiritual unfolding requires that we grow beyond what we learned and take responsibility for our own liberation in our own terms.
You are a human being with every right to be here, learning and exploring. To label yourself good or bad is to think too small. What you are is a decision-maker and every moment provides you the opportunity to move in the direction of your higher self or in the direction of stagnation or degradation. In the end, only you know the difference. If you find yourself going into self-judgment, try to stop yourself as soon as you can and come back to center. Know that you are not good or bad, you are simply you.
For the followers of AA, I provide this, for the rest of you, please read on.
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