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IT’s ALL CHOICE

streams — Wed, 30 Jul 2008 17:23:51 +0000

“The unhappy person resents it when you try to cheer him up, because
that means he has to stop dwelling on himself and start paying attention
to the universe. Unhappiness is the ultimate form of self-indulgence.
When you’re unhappy, you get to pay a lot of attention to yourself. You
get to take yourself oh so very seriously.”
- Tom Robbins, *Jitterbug Perfume*

For Her, Getting Sober Wasn’t Just About Stopping Drinking

streams — Thu, 26 Jun 2008 02:09:46 +0000

You see, for her, getting sober wasn’t just about stopping drinking and going to meetings. It was way more personal than that. That was never enough, or at least it never had a lasting effect. Toward the end of her drinking days, the longest she could stay sober was three to four months. She didn’t have the gift of believing in true “life itself”; she had to face her “gift” of shame and fear. Anything else was surface and she was unaffected. If someone were to have said that she drank too much she would have thought “how would you know?”

Getting sober, for her, needed to be about reclaiming her spiritual and physical truth. She knew the traditional programs claim that they are “spiritual,” however she had to find her own truth, her own path and spirit, and she needed a rock-solid reason, or it just wasn’t going to be worth it. It seems, she felt more comfortable in her own confusion of unedited free flow of the brain. She felt her sadness and her fear, and she was angry, deep down about it. Back then, she was hiding deep inside herself, where she thought the shame couldn’t find her, but alas, fear is shame’s house, and in reality, it fueled the light she saw the world through. She didn’t know the key to get out was contained in her soul, let alone that she even had the key.

It was not deliberate, but it was her very existence she was taught to be ashamed of and that her origin was to forever remain a closed secret, a dark smudge and a scary truth. Unconscious and fear-based dysfunctional agreements were made, resulting in a general understanding that whatever got her to Earth was something to be ashamed of and feared. She was taught that under no circumstances was she to ask, discuss or talk about the fact that she was adopted “for her own good.” That included her parents and everyone. She was taught to keep it a secret, or people wouldn’t like her. She was told other kids wouldn’t be allowed to play with her if they KNEW. Huh? She was taught to have fear, and to have fear of fear, and to feel emotionally vulnerable — because what should have been her rock, her essential truth truth had no foundation. What a mess.

Top Ten Reasons Your Life May Not Be What You Want It To Be:

streams — Wed, 25 Jun 2008 18:12:37 +0000

1. resistance
2. believing in and telling lies
3. setting yourself up/getting in your own way
4. not being in charge
5. listening to and believing in fear
6. over identifying with false states of awareness
7. …and forgetting to honor your true nature and origon
8. low self-esteem
9. harboring and defending delusions about attachment and surrendering
10. maintaining a toxic mind and body

Take A Meditation Minute:

streams — Mon, 23 Jun 2008 21:52:27 +0000

#13 Best Beaches / Relaxation Minute: Captiva, Florida from Greg Voevodsky on Vimeo.

two very cool covers of “crazy” and some crazy good uke

streams — Sat, 21 Jun 2008 16:57:16 +0000

http://www.myspace.com/violentandcrazy

and from: coeur2rocker, on utube.com is my current favorite version of “crazy”

but there’s more: . http://www.ukuleledisco.com/jake

totally unbelievable just copy and paste, you will be amazed

streams — Sun, 15 Jun 2008 23:27:16 +0000

“FIRST BUMP”

streams — Thu, 12 Jun 2008 18:15:06 +0000

“Bumping right, man!”

“What’s the bumping big deal?’

“Bump-off”
“Bump me this one.”
“Bump you.”
“Bump along, dear.
“Have a bumping good time.”
“Have a very bumping day.”
“Bumps to you.”
“Bumping Obamas”
“Bump me once, bump me twice, bump me once again…”
“To bump or not to bump,”
“Bumping Tips”
“Bumping support groups”
“How to know know if your bumping has progressed to a steady vibration.”
“Bumping secrets”
“Bump me one.”
“What’s all the bump about?”
“Bumping baby buggy bumpers.”

“I just wanna bump.

“Go B-U-M-P!”

And I had a really good one that I bumping forgot.

Top Ten Reasons Your Life May Not Be As You Want It To Be

streams — Thu, 12 Jun 2008 02:29:35 +0000

Resistance
Believing in and telling lies
Setting yourself up
Not being in charge
Listening to and believing in fear
Over identifying in false states of awareness (trances)
and Forgetting your true nature and origin
Low self esteem
Harboring delusions about attachment and surrendering
Maintaining a toxic mind and body

toxic ooze and delusions of grandiose victimhood

streams — Sun, 01 Jun 2008 13:12:53 +0000

What happens to the crazy full blown and active addicts you know who aren’t enabled by you any more? Have you ever noticed how angry and resentful they become when their manipulations don’t work on you any more? Have you ever had to deal with one of those? With no lives of their own, like the living dead, they wake in the morning for the sole purpose of revisiting their anger. Without a “fix”,they are crazy, sick and weird people with nothing to do except complain and cause trouble for functional people. They never can understand that, as its been said, being angry at someone else is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die. When should these people learn that the choices they make are their own, and lead directly to the next reality they experience? That is, where anyone is at this present moment in time is the result of previous choices. I know of a case, where an evil bipolar porn and sex addict, alcoholic, mommy hating, bitter, short, betting man had a decade to decide between healthy family life and addict life. He chose and progressed deeply into his addictions. Now, after divorce, he is even nuttier, but walks around in his obtuse angry and dangerous cloud claiming VICTIM. He can’t understand that he chose a life that encompasses behaviors that are unacceptable and a dangerous threat to healthy family life. An addicts’ version of love is narcissistic and empty because the primary relationship they want is with the addictive behavior of choice. Love is about trust and exposure allowing another to witness your soul. Addicts are running from the truth and will lie about the time of day if they believe it will serve them. There’s no soul witnessing there. If caught in a lie, they explode with anger and blame you and or, the classic, change the subject to something about you. Anyone who they can not manipulate, or who forces them to live in their own truth, they see as the “bad” guys, while they seem to expect healthy people to put up with the substances and the lousy behaviors that always accompany them with all of their wacky and loveless thinking. As an example of how they continually avoid personal responsibility, her ex’s new addiction is court. He gets this “fix” every 4-5 months. This time he is obsessing over a tiny detail that is entirely and rationally explainable. Court Orders, because they don’t pity the irrational mind of he addict, do not apply to addicts unless they are enforced. But with even the single slightest infraction on the other side, their haughty, self righteous and deluded agenda triggers the deep down ooze of their toxic hate and they become the misunderstood hypocritical martyrs and victims that have been wounded by an uncaring society again. These types of addicts are closed and will forever remain addicts. They vent their disgruntled lives onto the healthy world because they are afraid of recovery. The addict behavior is so ingrained, that they are in more fear of who they would be without the substances and the truth they would have to face, and the idea of putting their energies there makes them wackier still. A sign of the level of addiction and denial, is directly seen in the amount and volume of blameless unaccountability, and obsession with the angst they think they are the victims of. Hypocrites they all are who do the things to themselves and to others that they claim were done to them. Active addicts will never have their own functional lives, so they prey on yours and society at large. If there is one thing I do understand, it is this: Fear is the only energy fueling addiction, not Love. Ever.This website is protected by copyright.Copying of the articles, essays, stories, art and any original material, or,of any works presented herein–is strictly prohibited.

Heywood made, Enamel Painted Elementary School Chair $365.00

streams — Tue, 22 Apr 2008 17:06:12 +0000

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